Phew, what a day!
What a day I have had today, and it’s not even half one in the afternoon.
Carrot and ginger soup is sitting on the stove waiting for hungry girls to come home late in the evening from their dance practice and basketball game.
I have a plastic zip lock bag of homemade butter cookies along with homemade ABCD muffins thawing on the kitchen counter ready for snack time – all this while I am sipping on a homemade fruit smoothie.
Along with this mornings efforts I am trying to get chocolate spelt flour muffins into the oven, but keep getting pulled to my laptop to write this blog post, and I am running out of time because I need to be at school for a Grade 1 assembly where our littlest one is staring in her first speaking role of a short performance.
Ok, you are going to have to hold that thought I really need to get these spelt flour choc muffins into the oven.
Be back soon.
Hi.ya I’m back and on the other side of the evening meal.
I just re-read my introduction – I was a little self indulgent wasn’t I? Actually I was probably ALOT indulgent, come to think of it the entire piece makes me sound totally pretentious. OUCH!
What was it? Was it the fact that I mentioned I had already made dinner ahead of time, or was it that my snacks were homemade or could it have been that I said “spelt flour” twice in the same blog piece?
I know I get it.
TMI! TMI! – (hey mum, that means To Much Information….she’s nearly eighty, you’ve got to spell it out for her)
Scratch the surface and what you see here is a SAHM (stay-at-home-mum) trying to feed her kids well and run a household with ‘some what’ control and order with a side dose of a fun loving sense of humour.
Dig a little deeper and this mum is actually struggling with the pressures of being a SAHM in the year 2015. Never in my life have I ever felt the pressures of the outside world as much as I do today. I pride myself on ‘keeping it together’ in good times and bad. My strengths growing up have always been – ‘never give a damm about what other people think of me’. It has been a totally liberating way of life to live.
Until now that is!
Enter – SOCIAL MEDIA and the INTERNET.
It’s my vice, I am connected everyday, I choice to be connected everyday and suffering from a severe case of FOMO (fear of missing out) makes it extremely difficult to remove myself from my ever revolving (at high speed) networking world.
Because I allow myself to have a ‘newsfeed’ on Facebook that is filled with ‘celebrities’ ‘experts’ ‘guru’s’ and ‘friends’ all guiding me/us on how to
‘have an amazing life’
‘stay in control’
‘eat like a caveman’
‘find inner peace’
‘raise great kids’
‘have better sex’
‘be a modern day mum’
‘cook like Nigella’
I find myself comparing and sometimes competing with non existence others. Surely that can not be healthy for the soul?
While it is beyond fantastic that we can have unlimited access to information in all forms – the good, the bad and the ugly – how do we stop ourselves from reaching breaking point or information overload?
At one point I found myself with 9 different tabs open from the internet, a paleo expert telling us what not to eat and all about the chemical crap that can be found in the foods of today (scared the shit out of me, it really did) another expert telling us how to eliminate sugar (IQS) from our diets while eating some of the foods the paleo diet tells us to stay away from. Huh? Along with these experts I had Quirky Cooking opened on how to feed your kids a pasta meal without giving them pasta – is that an oxymoron? and there were others, what to wear if you are 5ft 4in and under (that’s me), and when is it too early to take your Christmas decorations down, blah blah blah on it went.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhh, make it stop, make it all go away. All this information is making me forget who I am, what I really like and how I wish to live in this world. I am forgetting to be me and trying to become someone that doesn’t exist, or do they?
Is there people living on the paleo diet that have hoarding problems, or maybe live with OCD (that’s what I want to see – someone who hasn’t got their shit together but eats healthy) – are all sugar free lovers skipping along in life with no financial problems, are they worried about how they are going to pay the school fees or is life just grand because they stopped eating sugar. Am I the only short woman of the world who thinks elastic waisted jeans for someone in their forties is just WRONG! and where does Jo Whitton from Quirky Cooking do her grocery shop – when I read her recipes I might as well be reading mandarin because I have never heard of half the food items let alone know where to source them from.
I do not know what the answer is, I do not want to disconnect from the information available to me, so how do I feed the need without trying to become a small percentage of many and forgetting to be 100% me?
All and any feedback is welcome.