Cheers, SorrentoMoonMy loss of focus and my lack of engagement in daily activities are so numbing at the moment it leaves me hiding under my bed covers curled up in a ball with an ache in the pit of my stomach. Each morning I awaken with the hope that ‘today’ is the day to jump on board a QANTAS plane and head ‘Down Under’ to catch up with family and friends for the festive season. Only to be hit with the realisation I still have thirty something more sleeps to go, around five weeks, approximately twenty three days of school lunches left, far too many dinners to even think about and a hurting spirit that isn’t living in the present because she is too busy worried about where she isn’t. “Not long to go now” I find myself highlighting to the girls every morning at breakfast. Why do I insist in sharing my sickness with them, they are happily enjoying their time spent in Canada, watching the weather change, attending birthday parties and ‘chillin out’ on weekends. How come their head-space is calm and relaxed, I want to be like that. My lack of motivation and desire to do anything exciting has left me running on empty – nothing else matters, except crossing the equator safely and celebrating Christmas back home in Australia. Homesickness is the worst! I am well educated, I realise that I can’t make the days click over any faster, yet I continue to be disconnected with life in Canada in the hope the my days will be shorter and time will travel faster. Come on now – that’s not why I came on this journey, here I am potentially sabotaging the opportunity of making wonderful memories with my family so I can stay in bed and wish my days away. Time away from home is hard and tricky on occasions and I can appreciate it will not be forever. Now I just need to turn that way of thinking into a positive and find the strength to push through this little road block. I welcome any tips or cures you may have to help my homesickness subside and get me living in the now so I can continue to make loads more memory making moments before Canada is just a topic of conversation with my life back home.